As I peruse the newest obsession maker, facebook, I come across an old coworkers profile. A friend of mine for a spell for sure. In case you are not familiar with the facebook process, it feels the need to update everyone on your friends list of everything you have done up to the last minute. If you took a sh@$, threw a snowball, listened to music. Everything. One of these updates includes pictures.
So she has updated her pics and posted many photos of her at the school we used to work at together. It made me miss the school slightly. It was very neat, organized and what not, but i definitely would never want to work there again. You see, they are in fact, kind of an undercover Scientology school and I am not kidding when I tell you they tried to brainwash me.
So I am looking at all the pics and all I can think to myself is "(Enter school name here) for life man!!!" These people suck you in and trust me when I tell you that they do not let go easily. I didn't' know if it's because they feel like failures inside when they can't get someone to commit or if it is because they are afraid of being exposed. At any rate it made me think of what my life would have been like had i not "defected" from the "group."
If I wanted to be POOR and get the equivalent of dirt in an envelope once a month I could have stayed there. If i wanted to work with a 104 fever and have no health insurance and no one to cover my class while i was dying, I could have stayed there. If I wanted to be berated ("slut, whore etc!") during "drills" that were designed to make me desensitized to the distractions and annoyances, so that i can "confront" anything head on, I could have stayed there.
If I wanted to be told how to dress, inside and outside of school, how and what to talk about with others in the "group," and have every conversation on the school phone listened in on, I would have stayed there.
In essence, even if i wanted to go back to the school to see the progress of the amazing students there, the innocent brilliant lives that they, in my opnion, isolate and manipulate, I couldn't because it is not a free zone for me. I am sure they have me on some kind of list as a "suppressive person" (these lists really do exist).
What is funny is that the year after I left my class's new teacher contacted me and asked me how to get the kids to stop talking about me. "Well Ms. V didn't do it that way- or Lets play the game from Ms. V's class, or lets dance instead of gym!" She asked if it was okay for me to write them a goodbye note and for them to send me one as well. I had no problem with that. That was the least I could do for them if it was hard for them to let go. Those kids will forever remain in my heart and to tell you the truth if the school administrators weren't so obsessed into turning me into one of them I would have stayed longer.
In the end I made the best decision for me, and thats all anyone can do. I miss the school grounds, the kids and the families but in truth my time in that city was up anyway.
And at least I know now why Tom Cruise is so weird.
Wednesday, March 25, 2009
Thursday, March 19, 2009
I'm Over It
One of the things i love to do most in NYC is people watch. That's part of the reason I don't mind taking the train all the time and walking from school to school for my job. I think that there is no other place in the world like NYC and one of my favorite things i love about his place is the fashion forwardness if you will. That being said, i need to address some thing I have been noticing and trends that are in my opinion - defunct.
Uggs- The boot Uggs. The camel ones. Sooooooo over it. Wake up people, you just spent 130 on a pair of fuzzy lined boots that you can't even wear when it snows. Everyone and their mother has them and they are PLAYED OUT. Put them away. Give them away, throw them away. I don't care what you do with them really but they were not very cute when they first came out and they still aren't. They are reminiscent of camel feet, which leads people to think of camel toe, and ladies- you don't want to be associated with that!
The Faux Hawk hair bump thing- If they start making infomercials on how you can create it " fast and easy, and you get two more free if you order now!" using some plastic thing, the trend is over. First of all this hairstyle is not for everyone, lets be real. if you have a five head, or long face, its gonna be a no on the faux hawk bump. Yes I have been guilty of rocking it once or twice but it was because i was in a bind and i was growing out my blunt cut bangs. . .which by the way are on their way out too. . .Tyra wore those things to death. . .Anyway, as a general principle if everyone is doing/wearing it, it gets old fast. I am so disappointed- this is NY, where is the creativity? I am ready for something new!
Ballet flats. Over 'em. Personally they kill my feet because of the lack of support and again everyone has them. They are only good for work. There are much cuter flat shoes coming out that aren't quite "ballet" style and you best believe I am going to snatch up the pair I saw last night on my way home as soon as I get my spring/summer money together.
That's all for now!
xoxo
GG
Uggs- The boot Uggs. The camel ones. Sooooooo over it. Wake up people, you just spent 130 on a pair of fuzzy lined boots that you can't even wear when it snows. Everyone and their mother has them and they are PLAYED OUT. Put them away. Give them away, throw them away. I don't care what you do with them really but they were not very cute when they first came out and they still aren't. They are reminiscent of camel feet, which leads people to think of camel toe, and ladies- you don't want to be associated with that!
The Faux Hawk hair bump thing- If they start making infomercials on how you can create it " fast and easy, and you get two more free if you order now!" using some plastic thing, the trend is over. First of all this hairstyle is not for everyone, lets be real. if you have a five head, or long face, its gonna be a no on the faux hawk bump. Yes I have been guilty of rocking it once or twice but it was because i was in a bind and i was growing out my blunt cut bangs. . .which by the way are on their way out too. . .Tyra wore those things to death. . .Anyway, as a general principle if everyone is doing/wearing it, it gets old fast. I am so disappointed- this is NY, where is the creativity? I am ready for something new!
Ballet flats. Over 'em. Personally they kill my feet because of the lack of support and again everyone has them. They are only good for work. There are much cuter flat shoes coming out that aren't quite "ballet" style and you best believe I am going to snatch up the pair I saw last night on my way home as soon as I get my spring/summer money together.
That's all for now!
xoxo
GG
Thursday, March 12, 2009
Liar Liar
If you have to spin a story so that you don't look like an asshole, then you're a liar. If you have to embellish parts or leave them out to save face, you're a liar. If you tell one person one thing and another person a different version of that, then you're a liar.
If you have to lie about anything then there is something wrong. What is it you are not proud of? What are you holding back? The fact that other people will think of you a certain way? Well believe me that if you have a lying personality then people already know you are full of shit, especially if they have been around you enough. When you notice that people around you are listening to your crap and just nodding their head and smiling, the jig is up. You have put yourself into the place that only liars know. Its a lonely place and the only way to get out is to come clean with yourself. The only problem is that you are so used to lying to everyone, including yourself that this is now your reality. You have begun to believe the crap that you spew to everyone, so what do you do? You go and find "new" friends that don't realize you are a liar yet, but inevitably you will be found out yet perpetuating the cycle. Good luck with that.
Being honest is not always easy but take it from me, it sure feels good. To be honest with yourself and others is a way to destress the bad energy that others try and put on to you. I am not saying you have to yell in their face about what a liar they are (for instance), but you can just say "whatever. I will believe what you are saying when I see a change in your actions." That's all. Usually these people will find the newbie friends that i mentioned before but when your at that point, who cares anyway.
If you have to lie about anything then there is something wrong. What is it you are not proud of? What are you holding back? The fact that other people will think of you a certain way? Well believe me that if you have a lying personality then people already know you are full of shit, especially if they have been around you enough. When you notice that people around you are listening to your crap and just nodding their head and smiling, the jig is up. You have put yourself into the place that only liars know. Its a lonely place and the only way to get out is to come clean with yourself. The only problem is that you are so used to lying to everyone, including yourself that this is now your reality. You have begun to believe the crap that you spew to everyone, so what do you do? You go and find "new" friends that don't realize you are a liar yet, but inevitably you will be found out yet perpetuating the cycle. Good luck with that.
Being honest is not always easy but take it from me, it sure feels good. To be honest with yourself and others is a way to destress the bad energy that others try and put on to you. I am not saying you have to yell in their face about what a liar they are (for instance), but you can just say "whatever. I will believe what you are saying when I see a change in your actions." That's all. Usually these people will find the newbie friends that i mentioned before but when your at that point, who cares anyway.
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